After a solid week of spotting, AF finally showed her face. That is the longest amount of spotting I have ever had prior to AF. I also spotted for several days after AF as well. Something hormonal is definitely out of whack with me, and I have no clue what it is as all my tests came back "normal." For now, I am chalking it up to the fact that this was the first month in awhile that I had not taken progesterone suppositories, so perhaps my body wasn't sure how to start AF on its own. Or it could be PCOS, endometriosis, my fibroid or any other number of fertility problems. Sigh. I am ready for some answers.
With that said, I finally broke down and made my first appointment with an RE. This is something I have been putting off for a long time. I have always felt this stigma with it - that once I made an appointment that I was officially "infertile." It also made me feel that once I had to see an RE, that signified it was not going to be easy for us to get pregnant. These things have kept me from making that first appointment - I so wanted to get pregnant the normal way. I felt like if I just tried hard enough, prayed enough, ate right, took vitamins, on and on, eventually my body would sort itself out and God would bless us with a little orange. That might have happened if we kept on the natural way, but I was ready to make that next step and God provided me some peace about it. I did a lot of research and selected what I think are the best specialists in a town. They have a practice together, and they are so popular that I can not get in until May. So we will keep on doing things the way we have been since November - no caffeine, mostly organic, healthy diet, lots of supplements, exercise and sleep. And of course lots of fun! :)
I'm glad you finally were able to make your appointment! Honestly, just because you are seeing an RE doesn't make you "officially infertile". Actually, I hate that term! I honestly think it is your attitude. I try SO hard to fill my life with other stuff too so I don't feel like it is consumed with infertility (although it can be hard NOT to get totally sucked in!). That is what makes me not feel like a total infertile....
ReplyDeleteIt did help to see the RE. When I went, I was able to get a diagnosis and a reason that we weren't getting pregnant. I felt like that left me with a little more detail and options than when we were just trying on our own. I felt like I understood what the problem was and that were solutions to implement. Hope your May appointment goes well.
Enjoy life until then :)