It happened again. Just when I thought I was over all work-related pregnancies another girl announced her pregnancy. She is due in November. She has a just turned one year old baby boy. She also revealed to me that another girl in our department, who had a baby last year, is also trying to conceive again, so I am sure she will soon be pregnant.
Ugh. What is wrong with me? Seriously - I was able to put on a happy face and hug her and I am sure to her everything appeared normal. And honestly, I am seriously happy for her and glad she is having a baby. I just feel so left behind. I want this too. In fact, she said to me as she was leaving, "You'll be next!" Oh, how I wish that was true. In her defense, it took her 8 months to get pregnant the first time, so she understands what it is like to a point, although she never underwent any fertility treatment.
I have not told anyone at work that we are trying. In fact, people think that I am not ready, because I have said that. Yes, I have lied. When people ask me, I just say, "Oh, not yet." And act like that is not even on the radar yet. I just don't want people knowing. Someday I may change my mind. But I am not there yet. I don't think I would have a lot of support. Maybe I am wrong, but I just don't feel it.
Pregnancy annoucements are the WORST....I'm so sorry! I had the same thing happen to me this week...announcements everywhere! I too used the "we aren't ready yet" card for many years. But, I am almost 33 now and we've been married for nearly 7 years, so I can't really use that card anymore....I think most people now either assume we are infertile, or when they ask...I just have to come out with it. Because I'm out of excuses....though I wish I could think of another because it truly is no ones busineess (even though they sure THINK it is!!)
ReplyDeleteI hope your time is coming too!!!
haha I love this post!!!!
ReplyDeletejust had an announcment today at work actually. I am going to blog about it tomorrow I think. Girl tried for 2 years, so I'm thinking "hey I'll go talk to her about what procedures and treatments she's done". I go talk to her, she doesn't even know how far along she is. Um, that tells me she didn't do treatment. I find out she has PCOS, and was supposed to schedule her first invasive test (HSG) upon her next period. Well, it never came. She was pregnant. Just like that. I shouldn't be bitter but I had gone into it thinking we were going to discuss treatment and I find out it just "happened" when she finally "stopped thinking about it". Oops, sorry, you probably don't give a shit about that right now! hah Just wanted you to know I'm with ya babe..I'm with ya.
Also, it took me 2 years to "get there" with respect to letting anyone at work to know, aside from my boss. And the only reason was that I knew there was a big chance I'd need coworkers to cover for me on their Friday's off, if my procedures fell the wrong way.
okay I'm such a goober. When I said "haha I love this post" I was referring to the Harry Potter one. The picture was awesome. Totally. Awesome.
ReplyDeleteHaha, I gotcha, thanks Cher! I do hear a lot of the advice that "it will just happen." I'm sure in retrospect I might think that way, but right now those comments just make me want to get out my trusty basilisk.
ReplyDeleteI actually have made some huge strides recently in regards to "coming out" with my infertility. I came right out and told my new hairdresser yesterday when she asked if we had any kids. So unlike me, but I guess God is changing my heart!