Unfortunately Husband's birthday wish did not come true. I was still sad, but honestly at this point I am always expecting it to be a no. There were still tears, but I wasn't surprised when all I saw was one line again. I will stop the progesterone after today.
I am not sure where we are going from here, but I am pretty sure we are done with IUIs. We have a consult with Doc in early October to talk about next steps, which will probably be IVF. I would also like to get some autoimmune testing done since there is a link with that and endometriosis. If the results are positive for any of those issues and Doc won't treat it, I will probably need to travel out of state to an RE that does.
Please pray for us. We are struggling with what to do next. I am at a loss as to why we haven't even been pregnant once in nearly two years of trying. I am young and healthy (just turned 28). My uterus is perfect, tubes are open and I am ovulating. Husband's sperm is great. I have endometriosis affecting one of my ovaries pretty severely, but we had surgery for that and it is supposed to be fixed. My uterine lining is good. I cannot think of why we are not seeing results - I know miscarriages are awful and I am not saying I want one. But it is very odd and scary to me that I have not even had a chemical pregnancy at this point. I want answers. Is it an egg issue? Is it autoimmune issues? Is it just that God has a lesson here and I haven't learned it yet?
I am so sorry. This honestly just makes me sick for you. It just doesn't make sense. And I am right there with you. Not even a chemical pregnancy in over two years. There are no good answers or things encouraging enough to say in times like this. But I will be praying that you will be given the strength to endure this burden as long as God has this for you. Praying your doctor will do more tests and that maybe you can get some answers. Unexplained is the worst. I know the most frustrating and encouraging answers at the same time is that it's just a matter of God saying yes and doing it, despite our bodies. But as Elizabeth Elliot prayed in one of her devotions the other day,
ReplyDelete"Your word, Lord calms the sea - speak that word to me today, Dear Lord: peace. Let your calm spirit, through the many potentially rough minutes of this day, say to my soul, 'Be still.' Even this day's chaos will be ordered by your quiet power if my heart is subject to your word of peace."
"The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me your love, O LORD, endures forever - do not abandon the works of your hands." Ps 138:8
p.s this is a wonderful sermon by Gregg Matte on infertility. Very encouraging: http://houstonsfirst.org/JacobHeroOrHeel-PartThree
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that this month wasn't successful. I can understand why you are feeling so frustrated with how things are going. Definitely praying for y'all as you try to decide what to do next.
ReplyDeleteBooo! :( Sorry to hear that this IUI was a no go. I know it is so frustrating, but before thinking about IVF I would really encourage you to look at IUI + injectables. It is much less expensive than IVF and is a good in between step.
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry. I know how disappointing those "no's" are. I agree with Good Timing's comment. You consider the IUI with injectibles. That is what finally worked for us when nothing else would. It was our last step before IVF. Lots of prayers continuing to go up for you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteGo all out on the caffeine and maybe some wine, no? So very sorry to hear this 'no'. Praying you get answers. Take plenty of time to just not think about stuff. Come back good, rested, and ready. :)
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